Fumbling Toward Ecstasy

Possession

listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning
memories trapped in time
the night is my companion
and solitude my guide
would i spend forever here
and not be satisfied

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

through this world i've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find a honest word
to find the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

into this night i wander
it's morning that i dread
another day of knowing of
the path i fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
i follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and i won't be denied

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
i'll hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes

Circle

there are two of us talking in circles
and one of us who wants to leave
in a world created for only us
an empty cage that has no key
don't you know that we're working with flesh and blood
carving out of jealousy
crawling into each other
it's smothering every little part of me

what kind of love is this that keeps me hanging on
despite everything it's doing to me
what is this love that keeps me coming back for more
when it will only end in misery

i know too many people unhappy
in a life from which they'd love to flee
watching others get everything offered
they're wanton for discovery
oh my brother my sister my mother
you're losing your identity
can't you see that it's you in the window
shining with intensity

what kind of love is this that keeps me hanging on
despite everything it's doing to me
what is this love that keeps me coming back for more
when it will only end in misery

what kind of love is this that keeps me hanging on
despite everything it's doing to me
what is this love that keeps me coming back for more
when it will only end in misery

Wait

under a blackened sky
far beyond the glaring streetlights
sleeping on empty dreams
the vultures lie in wait
you lay down beside me then
you were with me every waking hour
so close i could feel your breath

when all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the new born hope unjaded by their years

pressed up against the glass
i found myself wanting sympathy
but to be consumed again
oh i know would be the death of me
and there is a love that's inherently given
a kind of blindness offered to decieve
and in the light of forbidden joy
oh i know i won't recieve it

when all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the new born hope unjaded by their years

you know if i leave you now
it doesn't mean that i love you any less
it's just the state i'm in
i can't be good to anyone else like this

when all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the new born hope unjaded by their years

Ice

the ice is thin come on dive in
underneath my lucid skin
the cold is lost forgotten
hours pass days pass time stands still
light gets dark and darkness fills
my secret heart forbidden
i think you worried for me then
the subtle way that i'd give in
but i know you liked the show
tied down to this bed of shame
tried to move around the pain
but oh your soul is anchored

the only comfort is the moving of the river
you enter into me a lie upon your lips
offer what you can i'll take all that i can get
only a fool's here

well i don't like your tragic sighs
as if your god has passed you by
well hey fool that's your deception
your angels speak with jilted tongues
the serpent's tale has come undone
you have no strength to squander

the only comfort is the moving of the river
you enter into me a lie upon your lips
offer what you can i'll take all that i can get
only a fool's here to stay
only a fool's here to stay
only a fool's here

Plenty

i looked into your eyes
they told me plenty
i already knew
you never felt a thing
so soon forgotten all that you do
in more than words i tried to tell you
the more i tried i failed

i would not let myself believe that you might stray
and i would stand by you no matter what they'd say, i would
i'd thought i'd be with you until my dying day, day
until my dying day

i used to think my life
was often empty a lonely space to fill
you hurt me more than i ever would have imagined
you made my world stand still
and in that stillness there was a freedom
i never felt before

i would not let myself believe that you might stray
and i would stand by you no matter what they'd say, i would
i'd thought i'd be with you until my dying day, day
until my dying day

Hold On

hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell
hold on
hold on to yourself
you know that only time will tell

what is it in me that refuses to believe
this isn't easier than the real thing
my love you know that you're my best friend
you know i'd do anything for you
and my love let nothing come between us
my love for you is strong and true
am i in heaven here or am i
at the crossroads i am standing

so now you're sleeping peaceful
i lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and we'll see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile across your face

oh god if you're out there won't you hear me
i know that we've never talked before
oh god the man i love is leaving
won't you take him when he comes to your door
am i in heaven here or am i in hell
at the crossroads i am standing

now you're sleeping peaceful
i lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and we'll see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
now you're sleeping peaceful
i lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and we'll see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile across your face

hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell

Good Enough

hey your glass is empty
it's a hell of a long way home
why don't you let me take you
it's no good to go alone
i never would have opened up
but you seemed so real to me
after all the bullshit i've heard
it's refreshing not to see
i don't have to pretend
she doesn't expect it from me

don't tell me i haven't been good to you
don't tell me i have never been there for you
don't tell me why nothing is good enough

hey little girl would you like some candy
your momma said it's okay
the door is open come on outside
no i can't come out today
it's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
and threw you to the ground
who's there that makes you so afraid
you're shaken to the bone
i don't understand
you deserve so much more than this

so don't tell me why he's never been good to you
don't tell me why he's never been there for you
and i'll tell you that why is simply not good enough
just tell me why and i will be good to you
so just let me try and i will be there for you
i'll show you why you're so much more than good enough

so don't tell me why he's never been good to you
don't tell me why he's never been there for you
and don't you know that why is simply not good enough
just tell me why and i will be good to you
so just let me try and i will be there for you
i'll show you why you're so much more than good enough

Ice Cream

your love is better than ice cream
better than anything else that i've tried
and your love is better than ice cream
everyone here knows how to fight

and it's a long way down
it's a long way down
it's a long way down to the place where we've started from

your love is better than chocolate
better than anything else that i've tried
and oh love is better than chocolate
everyone here knows how to cry

and it's a long way down
it's a long way down
it's a long way down to the place where we've started from

Mary

mary walks down to the water's edge
and there she hangs her head
to find herself faded
a shadow of what she once was
she said how long have i been sleeping
and why do i feel so old
why do i feel so cold
my heart is saying one thing
but my body won't let go

with trembling hands she reaches up
a stranger's flesh is offered
and i would be the last to know
i would be the last to let it show
i would be the last to go

take her hand
she will lead you through the fire
oh and give you back hope
and hope that you won't take too much
respecting what is left
she cradled us
oh she held us in her arms
unselfish in her suffering
she could not understand

that no one seemed to have the time
to cherish what is given
and i would be the last to know
and i would be the last to let it show
i would be the last to go

mary walks
and i would be the last to know
and i would be the last to let it show
i would be the last to go

Fear

morning smiles
like the face of a newborn child
innocent unknowing
winter's end
promises of a long lost friend
speaks to me of comfort

but i fear
i have nothing to give
i have so much to lose here in this lonely place
tangled up in your embrace
there's nothing i'd like better than to fall
but i fear
i have nothing to give

wind in time
rapes the flower trembling on the vine
nothing leads to shelter
from above
they say temptation will destroy our love
the never ending hunger

but i fear
i have nothing to give
i have so much to lose here in this lonely place
tangled up in our embrace
there's nothing i'd like better than to fall
but i fear
i have nothing to give
i have so much to lose
i have nothing to give
we have so much to lose

Elsewhere

i love the time and in between
the calm inside me
in the space where i can breathe
i believe there is a distance i have wandered
to touch upon the years of
reaching out and reaching in
holding out holding in

i believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and i'll defend it long as i can be
left here to linger in silence
if i choose to would you try to understand

i know this love is passing time
passing through like liquid
i am drunk in my desire
but i love the way you smile at me
i love the way your hands reach out
hold me near
i believe, i

i believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and i'll defend it long as i can be
left here to linger in silence
if i choose to would you try to understand

oh the quiet child
awaits the day when she can break free
the mold that clings like desperation
mother can't you see i've got
to live my life the way i feel is right for me
might not be right for you
but it's right for me
i believe

i believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and i'll defend it as long as i can be
left here to linger in silence
if i choose to would you try to understand
i would like to linger here in silence
if i choose to would you try to understand

Fumbling Toward Ecstasy

all the fear has left me now
i'm not frightened anymore
it's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath

and if i shed a tear i won't cage it
i won't fear love
and if i feel a rage i won't deny it
i won't fear love

companion to our demons
they will dance and we will play
with chairs candles and cloth
making darkness in the day
it'll be easy
to look in or out
upstream or down
without a thought

and if i shed a tear i won't cage it
i won't fear love
and if i feel a rage i won't deny it
i won't fear love

peace in the struggle to find peace
comfort on the way to comfort

and if i shed a tear i won't cage it
i won't fear love
and if i feel a rage i won't deny it
i won't fear love
i won't fear love
i won't fear love

and if i shed a tear i won't cage it
i won't fear love
and if i feel a rage i won't deny it
i won't fear love
i won't fear love
i won't fear love

and if i shed a tear i won't cage it
i won't fear love

BONUS TRACK
listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning
memories trapped in time
the night is my companion
and solitude my guide
would i spend forever here
and not be satisfied

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

through this world i've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find a honest word
to find the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear

into this night i wander
it's morning that i dread
another day of knowing of
the path i fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
i follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and i won't be denied

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes

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