Dilate

Untouchable Face

think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want no one to follow me
except maybe you

i could make you happy, you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but you're perfect together

so fuck you
and your untouchable face
fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch say
who am i
bet you can't even tell me that much

2:30 in the morning
my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
safe haven of the sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down the top 20 country songs

out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
you know i really don't look forward
to seeing you again soon.

you look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
i won't know what to do
i won't know what to say

so fuck you
and your untouchable face
fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch say
who am i
bet you can't even tell me that much

see you and i'm so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there's a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there's a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying

is fuck you
and your untouchable face
fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch say
who am i
bet you can't even tell me that much
who am I
bet you can't tell me that much
who am I
somebody just tell me that much

To the Teeth

To the Teeth

the sun is settin on the century
and we are armed to the teeth
we are all working together now
to make our lives mercifully brief
schoolkids keep trying to teach us
what guns are all about
confuse liberty with weaponry
and watch your kids act it out
and every year now like christmas
some boy gets the milk-fed surburban blues
reaches for the avaliable aresenal
and saunters off to make the news
and women in the middle
are learning what poor women have always known
that the edge is closer than you think
when your men bring the guns home

and look at where the profits are
that's how you'll find the source
of the big lie that you and i
both know so well
in the time it takes this cultural
death wish to run its course
they're gonna make a pretty penny
and then they're all going to hell
and he said the chickens all come home to roost
yeah, malcom forecasted this flood
are we really gonna sleep through another century
while the rich profit off our blood?
and true, it may take some doing
to see this undoing through
but in my humble opinion
here's what i suggest we do:

open fire on hollywood
open fire on MTV
open fire on NBC
and CBS and ABC
open fire on the NRA
and all the lies they told us
along the way
open fire on each weapons manufacturer
while he's giving head
to some republician senator

and if i hear one more time
about a fool's rights
to his tools of rage
I'm gonna take all my friends
and i'm gonna move to canada
and we're gonna die of old age

 

Outta Me, Onto You

no no no no no no no no no no no no
no more

it's gonna be sudden
it's gonna be strange
i'm gonna turn on a dime
give you 5 cents change
it's gonna be long
overdue
it's all gonna come out
out of me, on to you

out of me
on to you
out of me
on to you

one of these days you're gonna push too hard
we'll go on like we've always done
till you go too far
one of these days it's gonna reach the top
then it's gonna start to spill
and it's not gonna stop

out of me
on to you
out of me
on to you
out of me
on to you
out of me

no no no no no no no no
no more

some people wear their smile like a disguise
those people who smile a lot watch the eyes
i know cause i'm like that a lot
you think everything's okay
and it is till it's not

out of me
on to you
out of me
on to you

no more

some people wear their heart up on their sleeve
i wear mine underneath my right pant leg strapped to my boot
don't think cause i'm easy i'm naive
don't think i won't pull it out
don't think i won't shoot

out of me
on to you
out of me
out of me
on to you
out of me

some people like to talk a lot
including you
you know there isn't much i have to say
that i wouldn't rather just shut up and do
i'm gonna miss you when you're gone
i'm gonna be torn
just remember that i love you
just remember you were warned

out of me
on to you
out of me
out of me
on to you
out of me

no no no no no no no no
no more
no no no no no no no no
no more.

it's gonna be sudden
it's gonna be strange
it's gonna be long
overdue
it's all gonna come out
out of me

Soft Shoulder

I don't keep much stuff around
I value my portability
but I will say that I have saved
every letter you ever wrote to me
the one you left on my windsheild
outside of that little motel
is in the pocket of my old gigbag
from back when life was more soft shelled

letters littered with little lewd pictures
drawn by the ghost of Woddy Guthrie
who would use your big thick hand
just to draw one or two for me

and I think of your letters as love letters
which is how I think of songs
in that it is the writing of them
tends to carry us along
and I danced to one of your old tunes
with my true love on our wedding day
and your voice sang the way my heart would sing
if it finally knew just what to say

two people pulled over on the same night
to look up at the same stars
they both found their wheels were spinning
in a soft shoulder
when they both got back into their cars
and they missed fate's appointed rendezvous
and then a whole lotta time went by
and then one day they were done
worshipping the landscape
and they put down their hands
and moved into the sky

and they had barely said hello
and it was time to say goodbye
goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye

Superhero

sleep walking through the all-nite drug store
baptized in fluorescent light
i found religion in the greeting card aisle
now i know hallmark was right
and every pop song on the radio
is suddenly speaking to me
art may imitate life
but life imitates t.v.
'cuz you've been gone exactly two weeks
two weeks and three days
and let's just say that things look different now
different in so many ways

i used to be a superhero
no one could touch me
not even myself
you are like a phone booth
that i somehow stumbled into
and now look at me
i am just like everybody else
i am just like everybody else

if i was dressed in my best defenses
would you agree to meet me for coffee
if i did my tricks with smoke and mirrors
would you still know which one was me
if i was naked and screaming
on your front lawn
would you turn on the light and come down
screaming, there's the asshole
who did this to me
stripped me of my power
stripped me down

i used to be a superhero
no one could hurt me
not even myself
you are like a phone booth
that i somehow stubmled into
and now look at me
i am just like everybody else
yeah, just like everybody else

yeah you've been gone exactly two weeks
two weeks and three days
and now i'm a different person
different in so many ways
tell me what did you like about me
and don't say my strength and daring
'cuz now i think i'm at your mercy
and it's my first time for this kind of thing cause

i used to be a superhero
i would swoop down and save me
from myself
but you are like a phone booth
that i somehow stumbled into
and now look at me
i am just like everybody else
yeah i am just like everybody else

Wish I May

i'm losing my love of adventure
i'm losing all respect
for me and myself tonight
i wonder what happens if i get to
the end of this tunnel
and there isn't a light
i've worn down the treads
on all of my tires
i've worn through the elbows
and the knees of my clothing
and i'm stumbling down
the gravel driveway of desire
trying not to wake up
my sleeping self-loathing

do you ever have that dream
where you open your mouth
and you try to scream
but you can't make a sound
that's everyday starting now
that's everyday starting now

don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you can't sell me on your optimism tonight
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you can't sell me on your optimism tonight

it's a stiff competition
to see who can stay up later
the stars or the street lights
all they really want
is to be alone with the darkness
no more wish i may
no more wish i might

it takes a stiff upper lip
just to hold up my face
i gotta suck it up and savor
the taste of my own behavior
i am spinning with longing
faster then a roulette wheel
this is not who i meant to be
this is not how i meant to feel

do you ever have that dream
where you open your mouth
and you try to scream
but you can't make a sound
that's everyday starting now
that's everyday starting now

don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you can't sell me on your optimism tonight
don't tell me it's gonna be alright
you can't sell me on your optimism tonight

i don't think i am strong enough
to do this much longer
god, i wish i was stronger
this song could never be long enough
to express every longing
god, i wish it was longer
i don't think that i am strong enough
to do this much longer
god, i wish i was stronger

Dilate

life used to be life-like
now it's more like show biz
i wake up in the night
and i don't know where the bathroom is
and i don't know what town i'm in
or what sky i am under
and i wake up in the darkness and i
don't have the will anymore to wonder
everyone has a skeleton
and a closet to keep it in
and you're mine
every song has a you
a you that the singer sings to
and you're it this time
baby, you're it this time

when i need to wipe my face
i use the back of my hand
and i like to take up space
just because i can
and i use my dress
to wipe up my drink
you know i care less and less
what people think
and you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kinda like our running joke
but it's really not funny and
i just want you to live up to
the image of you i create
i see you and i'm so unsatisfied
i see you and i dilate

so i'll walk the plank and i'll jump with a smile
if i'm gonna go down
i'm gonna do it with style
and you won't see me surrender
you won't hear me confess
'cuz you've left me with nothing
but i've worked with less
and i learn every room long enough
to make it to the door
and then i hear it click shut behind me
and every key works differently
i forget every time
and the forgetting defines me
that's what defines me

when i say you sucked my brain out
the english translation
is i am in love with you
and it is no fun
but i don't use words like love
'cuz words like that don't matter
but don't look so offended
you know, you should be flattered
i wake up in the night
in some big hotel bed
my hands grope for the light
my hands grope for my head
the world is my oyster
the road is my home
and i know that i'm better
off alone

Freakshow

life in the circus ain't easy
but the folks on the outside don't know
yeah the tent goes up and the tent comes down
and all that they see is the show
and the ladies on the horses look so pretty
and the lions are lookin real mad
and some of the clowns are happy
and some of the clowns are sad

but underneath
there's another expression
that the makeup isn't making
life under the big top
it's about freedom
it's about faking
there's an art to the laughter
there's a science
and there's a lot of love
and compliance
and there's a lot of love
and compliance
and there's a lot of love
and compliance
and there's a lot of love
and compliance

welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go

we live to hear the slack-jawed gasping
we live under a halo of held breath
and when the children raise up a giant shield
of laughter, it's like they're fending off death
and we can make somethig bigger
then anyone of us alone
and then the clowns will take off their makeup
and the people will go home

but life on the outside ain't easy
no sequins, no elephants,
no parading around
but the circus comes and the circus goes
and they're stuck in this fucking town

you need a lot of love and compliance
you need a lot of
you need a lot of love and compliance
you need a lot of
you need a lot of love and compliance

welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
welcome to the freakshow
here we go
love, love
love, love
love, love
love, love
love, love

Amazing Grace

amazing grace
how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
i once was lost
but now i'm found
i was blind but now i see

'twas grace that taught
my heart to fear
and grace that fear relieved
how precious, how precious did
that grace appear
the hour i first believed

through many dangers
toils and snares
i have already come
and it is grace that brought me
safe thus far
and grace will lead me home

and when this heart
and flesh shall fail
and mortal life shall cease
i shall possess
within the vale
a life of joy and peace

amazing grace
how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch, a wretch like me
i once was lost
but now i'm found
i was blind but now i see, now i see

'twas grace that taught
my heart to fear
and grace that fear relieved
how precious, how precious did
that grace appear
the hour i first believed

Going Once

going once
going twice
sold to the girl who ignored all the other advice
of all the people who knew better and
she just stood there
on the front porch
waiting for her (will) to come and get her
and she was packed
she had a suitcase
full of noble intentions
she had a (map)
and a staight face
hell bent on reinvention
and she was ready for the long day
she was in it for it (only)

going once
going twice
down the road less taken
with her diary
and her wd40
and her swiss army knife
and the beer
there was always someone there to say
why don't you just stay
and hang your hat
here

but she was packed
she had a suitcase
full of bungles and near misses
she was swinging through a jungle
of last calls and first kisses
and she was learning
about please
about huge humilities
and then one day she looked around her
and everything up till then was showing
and she wondered how did i get here
without even knowing where i was going
and now there's no getting out of this
and there's no going back
and it all seems so odd sometimes
and the odds all seemed stacked

going once
going twice
sold to the girl
who ignored all the advice
of all the people who knew better
she just stood there on the front porch
waiting for her will to come and get her

she was packed
she had a suitcase
she had a map
and a straight face
she was ready for the lonely
and she was in it forever
she was in it forever
she was in it
she was in it

Napoleon

they told you your music could reach millions
the choice was up to you
you told me they always pay for lunch
and they believe in what i do
and i wonder will you miss your old friends
once you've proven what you're worth
and yeah i wonder when you're a big star
will you miss the earth
and i know you always, always want more
i know you, you'll never be done

because everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon

and the next time that i saw you
you were larger than life
yeah you came and you conquered
you were doing all right
you had an army of suits behind you
and all you had to be was willing
and i said i still make a pretty good living
you must make a killing, a killing
and i hope that, that you are happy
i hope at least you are having fun

oh but everyone is a fucking napoleon
well everyone is a fucking napoleon

you say that, so that's the way it's gonna be
so that's what this is all about
i think that that's the way it always was
you chose not to notice until now
oh yeah now that, now that there's a problem
you call me up to confide
and you go on for over an hour
about each one that took you for a ride
and i guess that you dialed my number
because you thought for sure that i'd agree
i said baby, you know i still love you
but how dare you complain to me

oh but everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon
they told you your music could reach millions
the choice was up to you
you told me they always pay for lunch
and they believe in what i do
and i wonder do you miss your old friends
once you've proven what you're worth
and yeah i wonder when you're a big star
do you miss the earth
and i know you always, always want more
i know you, you'll never be done cause
everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon
everyone is a fucking napoleon

Hello Birmingham

hold me down
i am floating away
into the overcast skies
over my home town
on election day

what is it about birmingham?
what is it about buffalo?
did the hate filled wanna build bunkers
in your beautiful red earth
they want to build them
in our shiny white snow

now i've drawn closed the curtain
in this little booth where the truth has no place
to stand
and i am feeling oh so powerless
in this stupid booth with this useless
little lever in my hand
and outside my city is bracing
for the next killing thing
standing by the bridge and praying
for the next doctor
martin
luther
king

it was just one shot
through the kitchen window
it was one or two miles from here
if you fly like a crow
a bullet came to visit a doctor
in his one safe place
a bullet ensuring the right to life
whizzed past his kid and his wife
and knocked his glasses
right off of his face

and the blood poured off the pulpit
yeah the blood poured down the picket lines
yeah, the hatred was immediate
and the vengence was divine
so they went and stuffed god
down the barrel of a gun
and after him
they stuffed his only son

hello birmingham
it's buffalo
i heard you had some trouble
down there again
and i'm just calling to let to know
that somebody understands

i was once escorted
through the doors of a clinic
by a man in a bulletproof vest
and no bombs went off that day
so i am still here to say
birmingham
i'm wishing you all of my best
oh birmingham
i'm wishing you all of my best
oh birmingham
i'm wishing you all of my best
on this election day

Shameless

i cannot name this
i cannot explain this
and i really don't want to
just call me shameless
i can't even slow this down
let alone stop this
and i keep looking around
but i cannot top this

if i had any sense
i guess i'd fear this
i guess i'd keep it down
so no one would hear this
i guess i'd shut my mouth
and rethink a minute
but i can't shut it now
'cuz there's something in it

we're in a room without a door
and i am sure without a doubt
they're gonna wanna know
how we got in here
and they're gonna wanna know
how we plan to get out
we better have a good explanation
for all the fun we had
'cuz they are coming for us, babe
and they are going to be mad
yeah they're going to be mad at us

this is my skeleton
this is the skin it's in
that is according to light
and gravity
i'll take off my disguise
the mask you met me in
'cuz i got something
for you to see
just gimme your skeleton
give me the skin it's in
yeah baby, this is you
according to me and
i never avert my eyes
i never compromise
so never never mind
the poetry

we're in a room without a door
and i am sure without a doubt
they're gonna wanna know
how we got in here
and they're gonna wanna know
how we plan to get out
we better have a good explanation
for all the fun we had
'cuz they are coming for us, babe
and they are going to be mad
yeah they're going to be mad at us

i gotta cover my butt 'cuz i covet
another man's wife
i gotta divide my emotions
into wrong and right
then i get to see how close i can get to it
without giving in
then i get to rub up against it
till i break the skin
rub up against it
till i break the skin

they're gonna be mad at us
they're gonna be mad at me and you
they're gonna be mad at us
and all the things
we wanna do

they're gonna be mad at us
they're gonna be mad at me and you
they're gonna be mad at us
and all the things
we wanna do

just please don't name this
please don't explain this
just blame it all on me
say i was shameless
say i couldn't slow it down
let alone stop it
and say you just hung around
'cuz you couldn't top it

Back Back Back

back back back in the back of your mind
are you learning an angry language?
tell me, boy boy boy are you tending to your joy
or are you just letting it vanquish yeah
back back back in the dark of your mind
where the eyes of your demons are gleaming
are you mad mad mad about the life your never had yeah
even when you are dreaming?

who are these old old old people in these nursing homes
scowling away at nothing
like big rag dolls just cursing at the walls
and pulling out all of their stuffing yeah
every day is a door leading back to the core
yes, old age will distill you
and if you're this this this full of bitterness now
someday it will just fill you

when you sit right down in the middle of yourself
you're gonna wanna have a comfortable chair
so renovate your soul before you get too old
'cause you're gonna be housebound there
when you're old you fold up like an envelope
and you mail yourself right inside
and there's nowhere to go except out real slow
are you ready, boy, for that ride?

your arrogance is gaining on you and so is eternity
you better practice happiness
you better practice humility yeah
you took the air, you took the time
you were fed and you were free
you better put some beauty back
while you got the energy
you better put some beauty back yeah
while you got the energy

back back back in the back of your mind
are you learning an angry language?
tell me boy boy boy are you tending to your joy
or are you just letting it vanquish
back back back in the dark of your mind
where the eyes of your demons are gleaming
are you mad mad mad about the life your never had
even when you are dreaming?

Done Wrong

the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their ears and run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind you find in songs
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing to you about how i been done wrong

i am sitting, watching
out the window of the coffee shop
and i'm waiting, waiting
waiting for it to let up
i am rocking like a cradle
warming my hands with the cup in between
i am leaning over the table
holding my face over the steam

and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed

it just all slips
away so slowly
you don't even notice till you've lost a lot
i've been like one of those zombies
in vegas
pouring quarters into a slot
and now i'm tired
and i am broke
and i feel stupid and i feel used
and i'm at the end of my little rope
and i am swinging back and forth
about you

and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed

the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their ears and run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind you find in songs
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing to you about how i been done wrong
i been done wrong
i been done wrong
how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed
how could you
how could you
how could you do nothing
how could you do nothing

Swing

are you weary as water
in a faucet left dripping
with an incessant sadness
like a sad record skipping
and an ugly and ornery
and shadowy dread
lurking like a troll under the bridge
between your heart and your head

she came to and her
whole life was how she remembered it
she had a mouth full of fur
and she was laughing
she parked her hearse across
three spaces posted motocycles only
and jumped out shouting
what the cuss could make a nice girl like us
feel so lonely?

are you weary as water
in a faucet left dripping
with an incessant sadness
like a sad record skipping
with an ugly and ornery
and shadowy dread
lurking like a troll under the bridge
between your heart and your head

please dumb blind kind sir
lend little miss listless a little bit of christmas
she's been a real good girl
but now she's stuck here
the world is so little and still
mysterious and ominous as ever before
like an unmarked bottle full of pills
on the shelf right next to the thing
you were reaching for

are you weary as water
in a faucet left dripping
with an incessant sadness
like a sad record skipping
and an ugly and ornery
and shadowy dread
lurking like a troll under the bridge
between your heart and your head

swing the groove 'round here
where i can reach it
when i get my ass back on track
i know i'm gonna need it
swing shift til i get the money
to buy me and my baby a moon full of honey
then i'm gonna turn off the nagging voice
that follows me to bed
and fills my head with
you suck what did you do that for?

are you weary as water
in a faucet left dripping
with an incessant sadness
like a sad record skipping
and an ugly and ornery
and shadowy dread
lurking like a troll under the bridge
between your heart and your head

she came to and her
whole life was how she remembered it
she had a mouth full of fur
and she was laughing
she parked her hearse across
three spaces posted motocycles only
and jumped out shouting
what the cuss could make a nice girl like us
feel so lonely?
so lonely

are you weary as water
in a faucet left dripping
with an incessant sadness
like a sad record skipping

if you digging on the sound
break it down
no walls up
break it down
happiness spreaded all around
break it down
racism stomp it in the ground
break it down
so if you digging on the sound
break it down
no walls up
break it down
ignorance stomp it in the ground
break it down
then happiness spread it all around
break it down
check, who said folk and hip hop can't latch
put us together on the stage and light a match
kabomb guess who stepped in the room
sweeping you off your feet like we had a broom
with ani difranco and maceo
add a little freestyle flow and who knows
put a little scratchin into the mix
and its enough to get you high if you need a fix
if you digging on the sound
break it down
no walls up
break it down
happiness spreaded all around
break it down
racism stomp it in the ground
break it down
so if you digging on the sound
break it down
no walls up
break it down

Going Down

you can't get through it
you can't get over it
you can't get around

just like in a dream
you'll open your mouth to scream
and you won't make a sound

you can't believe your eyes
you can't believe your ears
you can't believe your friends
you can't believe you're here

and you're not gonna get through it
so you are going down

i put a cup out on the window sill
to catch the water as it fell
now i got a glass half full of rain
to measure the time between
when you said you'd come
and when you actually come

little mister limp dick
is up to his old tricks
and thought that he'd call me
one last time
but i'm just about done
with the oh-woe-is-me shit
and i want everything back
that's mine

little mister limp dick
is up to his old tricks
and thought that he'd call me
one last time
but i'm just about done
with the oh-woe-is-me shit
and i want everything back
that's mine

little mister limp dick
is up to his old tricks

Carry You Around

how pleased can one
sun setting make you
if you humble yourself
to it?
how grateful can you
really say that you are
just to be here and live
through it?
and when beauty asks a question
how often do you reply?
how often do you wonder
about life on the other side?
on the other side of sorrow
on the other side of rage
on the other side of ok
ok at all
in any way
imagine what loneliness
will drive someone to do
now multiply that times me
and multiply that times you
now imagine what it would take to try to make
this all happen again
and just when you think you're gonna cry
multiply that times ten
you
are distracting me
from all other activities
and i know the fact of your presence
will dominate my memory
of this restaurant this table
this day and this town
cuz i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around
yes i carry you baby
i carry you around

Adam and Eve

tonight you stooped to my level
i am your mangy little whore
now you're trying to find your underwear
and then your socks and then the door
and you're trying to find a reason
why you have to leave
but i know it's 'cuz you think you're adam
and you think i'm eve

you rhapsodize about beauty
and my eyes glaze
everything i love is ugly
i mean really, you would be amazed
just do me a favor
it's the least that you can do
just don't treat me like i am
something that happened to you

i am i am i am truly sorry about all this

you put a tiny pin prick
in my big red balloon
and as i slowly start to exhale
that's when you leave the room
i did not design this game
i did not name the stakes
i just happen to like apples
and i am not afraid of snakes

i am i am i am truly sorry about all this
i envy you your ignorance
i hear that it's bliss bliss bliss

so i let go the ratio
of things said to things heard
as i leave you to your garden
and the beauty you preferred
and i wonder what of this
will have meaning for you
when you've left it all behind
i guess i'll even wonder
if you meant it
at the time

Cloud Blood

i've been wondering what you meant
when you asked do you have a light?
i've been wondering where you went
when you left that party that night
cloud blood smudge smeared on the sky
its dawns roadkill
i've been driving since midnight
and i'm driving still

stop on the top of the ridge
just to feel the wind on my rand mcnally
then i feel the air grow cold
as i drift in to the first blue of the valley
and you're wondering how far down you are on my
call back list
but you don't realize
everytime i find i'm by a phone the landscape shifts

every other song someones trying to write
angels into the world
every grace every ace every near miss
every decent kiss by a pretty girl
she was an angel
she looked like an angel
and all of the angels did sing
and the angels were watching
and the angels were listening
and the angels were on hand to stand in for everything

you can call it magic
when a man pulls a rabbit out of a hat
but the reason i don't call
is cuz i wonder if there isn't a better word than that
and you can call me crazy
but i think you're as lazy as white paint on a wall
and i know you'll only speak to me in dial tones
if i call

its been way too long
since i've been behind the wheel
headlights guiding me head lights guiding me right through the dark
i feel
dry eyed, trying to resist
sleeps first kiss
everytime i have time to think
i think of this

da da da da
da da da
da da

Joyful Girl

i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
and i do it just because i want to
because i want to

everything i do is judged
and they mostly get it wrong
but oh well
'cuz the bathroom mirror has not budged
and the woman who lives there can tell
the truth from the stuff that they say
and she looks me in the eye
and says would you prefer the easy way
no, well o.k. then
don't cry

i wonder if everything i do
i do instead
of something i want to do more
the question fills my head
i know there's no grand plan here
this is just the way it goes
when everything else seems unclear
i guess at least i know

i do it for the joy it brings
because i'm a joyful girl
because the world owes me nothing
and we owe each other the world
i do it because it's the least i can do
i do it because i learned it from you
and i do it just because i want to
because i want to

The Arrivals Gate

gonna go out
to the arrivals gate at the airport
and sit there all day
watch people reuniting
public affection is so exciting
it even makes airports ok
watching children run
with their arms outstretched
just to throw those arms
around their grandpas' necks
watching lovers plant kisses
old men to their misses
at the arrivals gate

watching a mother
with a mother's smile
don't tell me to move
i just wanna sit here for a while
i have determined
it's a sure cure for cancer
watching excitment turn family
dogs into dancers
at the arrivals gate
at the arrivals gate
at the arrivals gate
at the arrivals gate

i got me a white bread sandwich
with some shredded lettuce
and i got me a ringside view
for my quaint little fetish

i just wanna drain my little pink heart
of all its malice
and kick back for the afternoon
in this flourescent palace

everyone's in a hurry
here in purgatory
except for me
i'm where i need to be
except for me
i'm where i need to be
except for me
i'm where i need to be

here at the arrivals gate

 

Providence

who knew
at this party that
i would walk in and i'd see you.
i guess now
we could just get drunk
yeah, that could be our excuse
you could slip
and out of nowhere
i could be there to catch your fall
and we could laugh
at ourselves
and the writing that's on the wall

it's a narrow margin
just room enough for regret
in the inch and a half between
hey, how you been and
can i kiss you yet?
so we talk like
nervous neighbors over a tall fence
true love
but for the lack of providence

but i just got one more
thing to tell you

cause words are vitamins
and life is short
and i know when we get up
to the front office
we're gonna have to fill out
a full report
and the first question will be
what were you thinking?
and the next question will be
what did you say?
then they're gonna check to see
if the answers to one and two
matched up much
along the way

in the interest of poetry
and the cowboy movie
that's you and me
i'm back on the horse now
and i am riding
i am striding so effortlessly
what i mean is
it's late
much too late for us
and i'm fixing to go home
with just my conscience
and a bitter sense of irony
as my chaperone

it's a narrow margin
just room enough for regret
in the inch and a half between
hey, how you been and
can i kiss you yet?
so we talk like
nervous neighbors over a tall fence
true love
but for the lack of providence

but i just got one more
thing to tell you

cause words are vitamins
and life is short
and i know when we get up
to the front office
we're gonna have to fill out
a full report
and the first question will be
what were you thinking?
and the next question will be
what did you say?
then they're gonna check to see
if the answers to one and two
matched up much
along the way

 

I Know This Bar

i know this bar
with a jukebox full of medicine
and christmas lights blinking
around a clouded mirror
it's not that far
from old voelkers bowling alley
just go up there and turn right
it's about three blocks from here

you'll probably find grace
her shift starts at happy hour
she's got this sweet face
easy as tea leaves to read
you gotta know what to look for
you gotta know what's there to find
but then i guess you don't really know her
so nevermind

i used to hang out a lot around there
in that part of town
where all the white kids
still have feathered hair

yeah i know this song
with this one really killer line
i don't remember it exactly
but it slays me every time
it's on the jukebox there
i know it's number 5403
go put that song on for me won't you
and make gracie think of me

i used to hang out a lot around there
in that part of town
where all the white kids
still have feathered hair

yeah i know this bar
with a jukebox full of medicine
and christmas lights blinking
around a clouded mirror
it's not that far
from old voelkers bowling alley
just go up there and turn right
it's about four blocks from here

   

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